6 PM... :) Lessons learned :(

I read it before, but I think this is the perfect time to deliver it-

             

"Never make anybody a priority in your life, 

        when you are just an option for them..."

Easier said than done. Such little to smile about. 
I won't be short-tempered but how to stop myself to be little crazy :)

Feelings,they are so irrational, mostly a mad gush of chemicals making you crazy. Making me fight to keep them beneath the surface. Yeah, of course; making me fight. 

I don't know about limits, reasons I don't need. I'm but a slave of love.
&
you hurt me at maximum impact.
but I am thinking of you because- 'how much life owes us, in Love Debt.'
 

Thought !

This is the smallest post for the season. Sorry about discontinuity. This is the impact of Gulzar. I was just tweeting & the result is it. I think you'll feel Gulzar in it definitely & even it is unbelievable that I framed it.


"कल मौसम की रंगत कुछ और ही थी,
        और आज देखो, इतना तल्ख़ हुए जा रहा है,
                      लगता है इसने भी कभी इश्क़ किया था |"


Dedicated to the weather of 22nd Feb.
Say how's it? 

Hopin' For A Sweet Semester :)

The sky is dark, pitch black, except for the glitter of the few stars of great bear constellation. What I presume are clouds, hide everything on the earth from me. The yellow light at the tip of the wing breaks the serenity. I crane my neck to see the rear view out of the window and see the full moon, in all its glory, perched over a cushion of  clouds just over the horizon. The cradle is lit yellow with the light from the aged moon.

And I curse my eyes, my heart for being unable to capture the magnificent scene.

I have forgotten all the things in a while, my mobile is ringing & I am attending the call.
It may relavent to my semester, hoping so...
(For those lost, this was a scene from my overnight flight...... 1 am-5 am, in my dreams)

Gulzar & me...(version-2)

"दिल की वादी में चाहत का मौसम है और यादों की डालियों पर अनगिनत बीते लम्हों की कलियाँ महकने लगी है | अनकही-अनसुनी आरज़ू, आधी सोयी हुई, आधी जागी हुई...आँखें मूँद के देखती है...ज़िन्दगी | ज़िन्दगी जिसके पहलु में मोहब्बत भी है, तो हसरत भी है, पास आना भी है, दूर जाना भी है | वक़्त बहता है झरने सा यह कहता हुआ ... दिल की वादी में चाहत का मौसम है ......."

आज फिर इस चाहत को गुलज़ार कर रहा हूँ गुलज़ार के साथ...

     "याद है इक दिन...
      मेरे मेज़ पे बैठे-बैठे
      सिगरेट की डिबिया पे तुम ने
      छोटे से इक पौधे का
      एक स्केच  बनाया था
      आ कर देखो-
      उस पौधे पर फूल आया है !!'

 

Gulzar will come back again...
wait for next posts...Bbye for now !

Me, Mom 'n' Cricket

"Silly, stupid, duffers; ruining all the Indians. Look, look at the way they chase the ball like ghosts, earn a lot for this silly thing and you with similar-you destroy your precious 9 hours for them. It's just madness." My mom says.

I don't know, why does she react in this way ? I remember that she watched all the matches of Team India in World-Cup 2003. But now...? I think she wants me to be more specific and concern about my career. But I can't hold myself to follow the Cricket Path.

Some things are the way they are...and words just can't explain them. So, I can't explain my feelings, I crane my neck to see the rear view out of the window. I love this game and enjoy every moment connected to it. Cricket teaches me about 'how to get victory and how to face failure.' This game gave me a lot of things and friends. And the most important thing is that I can enjoy this game only now. After 5 or 6 months from now there will be zero probability for this. So, sorry mom; you have to wait for my retirement from Cricket. [:D]


and...one more thing !
My father doesn't want to discuss anything at all. He just picks the newspapers or any magazine and comes out of the room as soon as I get the sports channel on the TV :)

and I have to mention my future program here-
March : Intra-College Sports Events
April : ECB Sports Club Championship

Bbye...but I'll come again because yeh dil maange more :)

Gulzar & me...(version-1)

Now I am from Gulzar's side, giving time to his wonders (I am saying 'wonders' because he does miracles with his creations). I want to share something which I like the most. The very first in a row is here...

Love you Gulzar... :)

और अचानक ...
तेज हवा के झोंके ने कमरे में आकर
हलचल कर दी ...
पर्दे ने लहरा के मेज़ पे रखी ढेर-सी कांच की
चीज़ें उलटी कर दी ...
फडफड करके इक किताब ने जल्दी से मुंह
ढांप लिया ...
इक दवात ने गोता खा के,
सामने रखे जितने कोरे कागज़ थे सबको रंग दिया
दीवारों पे लटकी तस्वीरों ने भी हैरत से
गर्दन तिरछी करके देखा तुमको...

फिर से आना ऐसे ही तुम
और भर जाना रंग फिर से इस कमरे में !

                                                    - गुलज़ार


(more in next posts...)

नया सवेरा :)

नव-वर्ष की शुभकामनाओं के साथ ....


"सो रहे हो ?
 सोते रहो !
 किन्तु क्या रुक जायेगा
 उगता हुआ नव-भोर ?
 निश्चित नहीं
 भोर तो आकर रहेगा
 इस धरा के
 मौज भरते,
मुक्त अम्बर में 
 विचरते,
 पंछियों का
 शोर भी छा कर रहेगा |"

:) consecutive second post in a row [:P]

And that has made all the difference...!!!

Happy New Year to all...
The very first post of this year strikes to me only because of '3 Idiots'.

So here is the much similar poem 'The Road not Taken' by Robert Frost.

 

'GOD' is a hard act to follow...

Today one year is completed of my brother's re-birth. He got serious accident in December last year and came from coma in February. Now, he is OK. So moments for joy ! But some horrible thoughts also in my mind remembering 8.30 PM of 20th Dec,2008.

I can't explain my feelings which I felt in the last 365 days. But I learnt a lot. For example, how to commit new responsibilities and accomplish them regarding your family, friends, love and life. As a result, I found some deepness in myself.


It's the post to thank all my friends and family members who supported us upto the immense level.

And, sorry to those friends who complained that I didn't tell them about that accident. But that was a nonplus thing. That time was too frustating to discuss. So, sorry once again ! Love you all- my friends.

I don't want to remember that round-robin around the hospital. Thanks to GOD for providing us 'Arpit' again and to give me some treasures silently.

At the last not the least:

                            "आँखों से दूर न हो, दिल से उतर जायेगा
                               वक़्त का क्या है गुजरता है, गुजर जायेगा | "

The Moment It Clicks !

One of the most beautiful aspects of doing math is the flash of insight that lets you out of a mental block.

This may appear surprising to those not in the field but the fact is that research mathematicians fumble around looking for the light switch in a dark room for much of their waking hours. Things usually don’t work out. Being stuck on a problem is the default state.

That’s what makes those moments precious. Suddenly, you see it. A germ of an idea appears in your mind, something clicks and you realize— this will work.
It is all about the moment, in art and in math.

#Happy_from_inside

Here I found an interesting image related to math...enjoy it & say if you feel the same. You can also find near -to-similar page on my desk :)

Finally,
This one relates to the last post and the connections run deep. Thanks to mine love (books) for bringing up this beautiful quote. :-)

"You know what I pray for? I pray for the power to change what I can, the inability to accept what I can't, the incapacity to tell the difference."
-Calvin and Hobbes.

Bye for now, see you soon.

Simple thought

"It is important to care, but equally, if not more important to show that you care."

Such a true said by someone stunned. Isn't mutuality in human relationships natural to expect? Is it too much? Is it possible for you to be a friend to someone who is not your friend? Is it possible to not to be a best friend to your best friend? Your voidness is your love for your friendship.
To get someone's call whom you like or say you love after a long time gives a bouncer on your heart, you are happy, dancing... but you get serious as you remind that it's a long time by him/her to talk... Is your liking don't like you, don't care a bit for you, if is it so... then think about your relation !

I am also doing so, if you get result earlier then help me to bring me outside from this confusion.
Finally I am having this...

"A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects and mostly to love someone..."
-Robert A. Heinlein

'ज़िन्दगी, शुक्रिया !'

"आ ! कि दिल कि उदास दुनिया में
 यास के अब्र छाए जाते हैं,
 आ ! कि यह रात ढलती जाती है
 कई दरख्त छूटते जाते हैं |"

आज एक बार फिर से दिमाग के बवंडर ने आ घेरा है | सुबह बस होने को ही है, लेकिन यह दिमाग अब भी सोना नहीं चाहता | अब तो वक़्त-बेवक़्त होने कि आदत सी हो गयी है | कोई हसीन-सा नुक्ता दिन में तो मेरे शब्दकोष को विराम दे देता है, लेकिन रात में तो किसी का कोई ज़ोर नहीं | यह कोई वक़्त नहीं है अपनी जिजीविषा को धरा पे अवतरित करने का, लेकिन जब कलम खुद-ब-खुद चलना चाहे तो क्या किया जा सकता है ?

किसी की दार्शनिकता का कोई पैमाना नहीं होता | दार्शनिकता तो ज़िन्दगी को हूबहू मस्तिष्क के कैनवास पर उकेरती है | ज़िन्दगी, ज़िन्दगी है तो प्रेम है और प्रेम से ही यादों का समुच्चय है | एक लक्ष्य, प्यार  और एक स्वप्न आपके शरीर पर ही नहीं, आपके पूरे जीवन पर नियंत्रण करने की शक्ति देते हैं |

हर गुज़रता लम्हा जीवन है | इसे महसूस करें और जीवन का आभार मानें | यह चलती रहती है, क्योंकि यह नृत्य है , एक हास्य है, एक लय-एक संगीत है, एक अविराम अटूट  उत्सव है, एक निरंतर महारास है  | यह पल-पल हमें बताती है कि मैं नवोन्मेष हूँ नए मनुष्य की,  नयी मनुष्यता की | इस ज़िन्दगी से प्रेम करो | यहीं से प्रेम का उदय होता है |

"किरण-किरण बिखरती है, तो उजाले फैलते है,
किरण-किरण जुड़ती है, तो उजाले बनते है,
रोशनी कतरों में समाई है और हर कतरा
अपने हिस्से की रोशनी लेकर आता है |"

हर कोई चाहता है की उसका प्रेम सुन्दर हो, उसकी ज़िन्दगी सुन्दर हो | अपने प्यार को खूबसूरत देखने की चाह किसकी नहीं होती लेकिन सुन्दरता किसी प्रेम की अनिवार्यता नहीं होती, वह तो खुद हर खूबसूरती से खूबसूरत होता है |

कोई प्रेम के लिए पूरी ज़िन्दगी भटकता रहता है, यह भी नहीं जानता की उसका प्रेम उसके ही सामीप्य में है, उसकी ज़िन्दगी | अगर भटकना ही है तो इस तरह भटको की भटकन ही आनंद की मंजिल बन जाए | भटकते-भटकते उसके पास बस यादें रह जाती हैं | यादें स्वयं को विश्वास दिलाने का तरीका है की आप विशिष्ट हैं | आपको भी प्रेम करने वाले हैं और आप उनमें से नहीं है जिनकी किसी को परवाह न हो |

यादें समुद्र के छोर पर उसकी लहरों से लगातार गीले होते शंख की तरह होती हैं, जिसमें समुद्र की सारी ठंडक, उन्माद, उल्लास, नवीनता, क्षणभंगुरता, प्रयास, अभ्यास, क्षमता और विविधता छिपी होती है |

इन यादों को खुद में समेट लो, कल के लिए, क्योंकि यही एक तुम्हारा ख़जाना होगा इस भीड़ की कंगाली में .....

मेरा खुदा ...

मैंने ख़ुदा को किश्तों पे खरीदा था
किश्तों पे खरीदे हुए ख़ुदा
उस वक़्त तक दुआएं पूरी नहीं करते
जब तक सारी किश्तें अदा न हो जायें |

एक बार मैं ख़ुदा कि किश्त वक़्त पर अदा न कर सका
ख़ुदा को मेरे पास से उठा कर ले जाया गया
जो लोग मुझे जानते थे
उन्हें पता चल गया
अब न मेरे पास ख़ुदा है
न क़बूल होने वाली दुआएं
और
मेरे लिए ख़ुदा फ़र्ज़ कर लेने का मौका भी जाता रहा |

2 States Of My Mind...

I have just finished '2 States' by Chetan Bhagat. For this simple job I invest 10 days, but not in vain. The conclusion was that I found it far better than 2nd and 3rd one. Nice work Chetan !

Now come to the point. I am not here to discuss it's content or story, I want so...because I liked it's humour like Mickey Mouse, but it may be controvertial. Basically I am going to project it's concept with mine life, actually everyone's life.

If you are reading this post and didn't read '2 States', then it's obvious to discuss something about this creativity :

'2 States' is all about how you get your target(love) if you seriously target(love) it. Krish, a genius bugger from IITD and Ananya, a South Indian girl make their way to IIMA. They meet in certain horrible conditions and like each filmy_love_stories, their meetings convert into their_love_story. To teach your girlfriend in her room at her hostel is so-cool thing to enhance the love and shrink the limits and it happened.

Both are agreed to marry with each-other but they have to agree their families  also, and surely it is not a cake because Krish is a Punjabi Boy and Ananya is a Tamil Brahmin. Now, Krish took his posting at Chennai so that he can fill the gap between him and Ananya's family. So much drama, so much dedication, so much patience, so much efforts, so much offences, so much disappointments... Krish bears all the things for Ananya only upto 6 months and finally got the fruit.

Now turn to Ananya ; she has to agree Krish's Mother (surprise about Father) and she gets a little bit success in it.

And, now Ananya's family and Krish's family has to like each-other. They don't but, 'If Love is real, then all barriers gone imaginary...'

So, in the last after lot of funny moments, sentimental situations Krish and Ananya got married similarly filmy_love_stories.

In real, this reading influenced me or can say penatrate a niddle in my heart and forced me to think. But for this you have to share Krish's luck. Leave it, Two-States says not to loose patience, temperament, target in non-favourable-conditions as in every reading; but unlikely to others it is a love-story of triumph as well triumph of a love-story. If you want anything in life (seriously not by affection), seriously you want to, then no-one can stop you; you have to achieve it and you will, no matter how you go to survive it. If your heart, mind, soul are craving for that desire, you'll get a zeal to find the way to that.

That's all about reviews over 2 States.

Finally, I'll share some text from this Total_immense_love_reflection novel-

(these may be used as proverbs now...)

"Pretty girls behave best when you ignore them. (Of course, they have to know you are ignoring them, for otherwise they may not even know you exist.) "

"All professors are assholes."

"Once you start liking someone, their mere presence evokes a warm feeling in you."

"When a woman comes into your life, things organise themselves."

Sweetest Line : "'Ananya Swaminathan, I, Krish Malhotra, am deeply in love with you and want to be with you always. Apart from when we go to office, of course. Will you marry me ?' "

"But when someone tells you to not take it the wrong way, you have to take it the wrong way."

"Jealousy is a rather enjoyable emotion to watch."

"Naan Onnai Kadalikaren, she said 'I love you' in Tamil."

"Because knowledge is not for showing off. If I do good work, people should notice me."

"People close to you have the power to disturb you the most."

"The funny thing about sleep is you can't instruct it to happen."

"sometimes in life you just meet someone or hear something that nudges you on the right path. And that becomes the best advice. It could just be a bit of common sense said in a way that resonates with something in you. It's nothing new, but because it connects with you it holds meaning for you."

"Isn't love the best investment ?"

"The world's most sensible person and the biggest idiot both stay within us. The worst part is, you can't even tell who is who."

Bye for now;

Ashish

मरम्मत मुकद्दर की कर दो मौला ...[:)]

एक खुशबू आती थी ...
मैं भटकता जाता था...
रेशमी-सी माया थी,
और मैं तकता जाता था...
जब तेरी गली आया, सच कभी नज़र आया...
मुझमें ही वो खुशबू थी जिसे तूने मिलवाया |
                                 
                                   टूटके बिखरना मुझको ज़रूर आता है,
                                   वरना इबादत वाला सहूर आता है,
                                   सजदे में रहने दो, अब कहीं न जाऊंगा
                                   अब जो तुमने ठुकराया तो सँवर न पाउँगा |

सिर उठा के मैंने तो कितनी ख्वाहिशें कि थी...
कितने ख्वाब देखे थे, कितनी कोशिशें कि थी...
जब तू रूबरू आया ....
जब तू रूबरू आया, नज़रें न मिला पाया...
सिर झुका के इक पल में, मैंने क्या नहीं पाया |

                                    तेरे दर पे झुका हूँ, मिटा हूँ , बना हूँ ...
                                    तेरे दर पे झुका हूँ, मिटा हूँ , बना हूँ ...
                                    दरारें-दरारें हैं माथे पे मौला......
                                    मरम्मत मुकद्दर कि कर दो मौला !!!

your presence makes the world sooo different !!!

जब किसी की आँखें तुम्हारे लिए आतुरता से भरती हैं,

कोई आँख तुम्हें ऐसे देखती है कि तुम पर सब न्यौछावर कर दे,

किसी आँख में तुम ऐसी झलक देखते हो कि...

तुम्हारे बिना उस आँख के भीतर छिपा हुआ जीवन वीरान हो जायेगा 

सिर्फ वीरानी...

तुम ही हरियाली हो, तुम ही हो वर्षा के मेघ, 

तुम्हारे बिना सब फूल सूख जायेंगे,

तुम्हारे बिना बस....

बस...

  रेगिस्तान रह जायेगा.... 

जब किसी कि आँख में तुम जीवन कि ऐसी गरिमा देखते हो,

तब पहली बार तुम्हें पता चलता है कि तुम, हाँ तुम... 

सार्थक हो; सप्रयोजन हो ...!!!    

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1Wl7CRh_vo

Mine letter for me !!!

Dear Ashu,

I am trying to write you this letter since last year but I think this letter is getting it's right time to deliver now.
Here are some points for you to think about.

"If You Love Sum1 Then Remember...... Very often when we meet sum1, he or she belongs to sum1 else..... Its so funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truely love will always be an expectation/exception!!!! There would come a time when we have to stop loving sum1 not bcoz that person started hating us but bcoz we find that they'd be happy if we let them go. You will know you really love sum1 when u want him/her to be happy even if their happiness means you're not a part of it!!!! If sum1 comes into your life and becomes a part of you, but for some reasons he/she couldn't stay... DONT CRY TOO MUCH!!!!! Just be glad your paths crossed and somehow he/she made you happy even for a while. There are a few things that we never want to let go; Some people you never want to leave behind; But keep in mind that letting go is not the end of the world but rather it is the BEGINNING OF A NEW LIFE!!!! Just bcoz sum1 doesn't love you the way you want him or her to doesn't mean they don't love you... REMEMBER.... The best relationship is when your love for each other is greater than your need for each other. Giving sum1 all your love is not an assurance that he or she will love you back... Don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in his or her heart. If it doesn't, be content it grows in you. It takes a minute to have a crush on sum1.... An hour to like sum1.... A day to fall in love with sum1.... But it takes a lifetime to forget sum1 you have grown to love!!!! And finally REMEMBER.... Love is rather complicated, but i'll tell u this, "THE SECOND YOU ARE WILLING TO MAKE YOURSELF MISERABLE TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY... THAT'S LOVE!!!!"

                                                                                                                               yours loving

                                                                                                                               Ashu

dear ones...

I am here after a long time. Engineering is not an easy job now a days.You have to compete not only with your pears but also with yourself. This is not the reason for my delay of that period.

I am here for friends again. So I want to share something about my friends of my college life...

ALOK MISHRA :::

This was my first room partner and my first buddy of my college life.A genius person from whom I learn first chapter of professionalism.He is a great friend and good critic for your work so that you can improve your level.He is a lazy man who study last night of exam but has excellence in circuits and computers.

KULDEEP SHARMA :::

My classmate of ECE ,cool-shool banda.Doston ka dost orrrrr... dushmano ka bhi dost.Dil ka saaf banda.Honestly,I have never seen a true person like him. True lucky guy.

NARESH BANSAL : This creature is called typically 'Nurli' among our group. A person who can show everything whatever have in mind/heart. good friend of mine related to earth. He wants to fly in sky but also wants to keep feet grounded. Marwadi banda in desi flavour... HERO,looks like Jayed Khan.Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

RAVISH CHARAN : My next room partner after Alok. I learnt many things from him,,,,the main was to keep simple and straight forward yourself even you are special and wanted. He was my coach of 'Counter Strike'.A cool and dashing person,I ever seen in my batch. Fultoo masti lekin padhai k waqt padhai.Really a close friend of mine... Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

PREET BHASALI : Now really a tough job to define a friend like him. Dedicated to particular things for particular time. I never listen any kind of cheap things from him. Sharp minded,good programmer and really a focused person.....or sabse badi baat...yeh hai Hazir-Zawab. Bas ek hi problem hai,,,nahata nahi hai.Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

SHIKHAR JAIN : That's called ours 'chachi',an IT gadjet,awesome programmer,simple living and high thoughts.Also plays cricket and good critic of cricketers. Kabhi Kabhi to aise kaam kar deta hai jo expect nahi ki ja sakti...'one day in his room;me ,chachi & roussel'....can't say any more. Ek close friend . Iski first year ki bhujia abhi bhi yaad aati hai. koi nahi...Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

SAURAV(DAAU) : Yeh hamara leader ... Daaau Bhaiya. Gajab ka politician, good speaker, true leader ,grey-hat ,serial hacker,social motto,good cricketer, good motivator. I can't write more bcz. list is very long. I want to see him as an politician in future having techno background.Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

VIKASH : Studied in Army school, simple living personality, more close to Daau. A disciplined one , excellent football player. He got a creative mind where always innovative ideas appear.Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

PRIYANK : Ajmer/Jodhpur/Bikaner...ab ise kahaan ka bataoon. Cool-dude banda,,,he rocks in his own life but influence everyone. Stylish and commited person and fax-professional. A pace battery of our hostel. Buuuuuuurrrrraaaaahhhhh. Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

JITENDRA : Chi-chi/churu/rajgarh/jitu.......iske bhi kai naam.A CSE stud. Decent in nature,moral hearted but commits good arguments.Khane-Peene ki cheeze ghar se lata hai or.......hum kha jate hai.......truely yaar...amazing one,Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

ANKUR RAIKAR : Apna Kota ka hi banda hai.Sincere,concentrated,faithful...jyada ho gaya. Iska naam yaad karte hi gahlot k cricket k wo din din yaad aate hai jab isko hamesha boundry par fuilding karne k liye laga dete the,or jab bhi yeh koi catch by chance pakad bhi leta tha to ,he shouted...'Hat.....!!!!_______' chalo koi nahi,,,,but...Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

SHREEKANT : A CEO kum stud , IT professional since 1st year. Completely sink in Madhushala,Ghajals...and web designing. A well managed person and fully concentrated to passion.Having dreams and another dream in eyes to complete them.Hats-off to u bro.Keep in touch yaar,'Hamesha'.

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